“Take, eat, this is My body which is broke for you.” 1 Corinthians 11:24 NKJV
This morning I woke up early and looked out the window to the birds chirping finding food and the sun trying to peak through the clouds. Cars were zooming up and down the road heading to start their day and I thought to myself…I wonder how many of them read their Bible or talked to God today?
Now don’t get me wrong I am not judging by any means. This is the first morning I have woken up early to read my Bible in over a year. I sat down with my tea, turned on worship music, and grabbed my blanket, because your girl was cold this morning, and I actually had a full on conversation with God.
So often when we are sick our minds go blank and we don’t think of anything except ourselves and what we are going through. I think, for me, I went into survival mode when I got sick.
Has this ever happened to you? Don’t worry, you are not alone.
A year ago I made the hardest decision of my life and decided to go to Arizona for treatment for my Lyme. This meant postponing marrying the love of my life, changing everyone’s plans for the next month or two, and I just went into a massive downhill spiral. I was so lost and even though it was my decision to go, I didn’t want to go. Once I was home, two months later, I was waiting and waiting to feel better but I was getting worse. By September after lots of prayer I made the decision to quit my job. Another thing I didn’t want to do, but knew I needed to.
With all this going on I felt I wasn’t taking the time to enjoy what was right in front of me, my new husband.
This wasn’t what I was told marriage would be like, wasn’t what I envisioned. Where was my happily ever after when I felt miserable? Don’t get me wrong, I loved being married and was SO happy to have married Jeremy, but I wasn’t happy because I was so sick. Arizona was supposed to make me feel better and I was getting worse. Like I said earlier I SHUT DOWN. I was a mess. But someone stood by me day after day, tear after tear. Today I call him my amazing husband, my prayer warrior, the love of my life, Jeremy.
This past January I found the reason I wasn’t getting better, I had Mono. I guess from what my doctors said I got it from my thyroid disease and apparently have had it on and off for the past few years which is why we couldn’t ever get my health under control. But I’ll share more on that later because it’s a lot. I am finally at a place where I am feeling better. After months of being bed ridden my body shut down and I am finally getting PT for that. I am going on bike rides, slowing doing some light home workouts, and recently (starting today) waking up early to rekindle my relationship with God. It is taking time to heal mentally, physically, and spiritually which is hard because I am not a patient person. And my husband has been my number one supporter through it all. I don’t know what I did to derseve such an amazing guy!!
After months of being sick my eyes are opened and I don’t ever want them to close again.
Today I was reminded, well actually taught as well, Jesus is our bread. My SIL, thanks Tina, bought me a devotional a while ago and I decided to open it today. It’s called “UPON WAKING” by Jackie Hill Perry. If you don’t have it or haven’t heard of it go buy it. It’s amazing!
What does it mean by Jesus is our bread? Good question. We hear this all the time when we have communion at church and honestly I never really took the time to hear the words…”Take, eat, this is our body which is broken for you.” By eating the bread we are inviting Jesus into our body. When the time comes Jesus WILL come back and we can’t just say we are a christian and get into heaven. We must have a relationship with God and Jesus! Jesus is our bread. He is the Bible. Upon waking the first thing we want to do is eat, so why is talking to Jesus the last thing we end up doing?
I encourage you if you don’t have a relationship with Jesus and want to know more, talk to a pastor or someone you know who does have a relationship with Him. Jesus WILL change your life. He has changed mine. Fill your stomach with food AND Jesus first thing in the morning! Invite Jesus into your body and see your life change before your eyes.
“For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.” John 6:40 NIV
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