⛈The Storm Inside⛈

God never promised us easy. Just promised us ETERNAL. If life was going to be easy, there would not be any point to living.

In this blog I want to be honest and real with you. I am not perfect…I’m far from it. On Facebook and Instagram you only see one side of pictures. The happy smiling faces. But you don’t see the struggle, the ‘behind the scenes’, of trying to get the “perfect” shot. Everyday I struggle with something. Struggle with anxiety. Struggle with depression. Struggle with remembering. Struggle to make my bed. Struggle with saying YES to God and having a smile on my face while saying YES. I even struggle in relationships with my own family. Something I don’t struggle with is fighting. Yes I fight with my siblings, who doesn’t, but that’s not the fighting I am talking about. I’m talking about fighting with something you can’t see. Fighting with the enemy.

My mom told me when I was born the nurse said I was a FIGHTER. I was premature at only 3lbs 15 oz and had stopped growing. Even before I was born I had a storm inside of me. I have been fighting the enemy since day one.

When I was 20 years old I remember going and talking to a counselor for the first time. I had just lost my grandmother who was a mother figure to me and I also just had my four front teeth removed and hardly ate anything for about 6 months. (2 more storms added to my life) My doctor told me I had to start eating because I was on the verge of anorexia. (another storm) I was really depressed and having anxiety attack after anxiety attack. (and another storm) I grew from these struggles and started the fight of living my BEST life. Fighting for happiness.

The day we say YES to God He vows to be our guardian. To protect us. When we are at our worst He is there!

Right now I am there. Not my worst but close. I am struggling with my faith, trusting people, and happiness. I am seeking counseling, but more importantly I’m seeking God. I am learning that just because people have a smile on their facebook profile picture doesn’t mean they are actually happy. There is a storm inside of everyone. We just need to know where to truly turn to overcome the storm.

The answer is always JESUS!

As I write this blog my mind wonders to Matthew 14:22-33; when Jesus walks on water. I find myself comparing to Peter. I am always having to see things to believe just like Peter. He says in verse 31, “Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?””

Why do we doubt? Why?? I am speaking to myself as much as I am speaking to you. I doubt Jesus by not listening and not reading His word. Are you going to talk the talk or walk the walk?

What do you say…want to take the first step and fight with me? I am going to take these next 7 days to pray. Not just a little prayer but a BIG prayer. A prayer to fight and make the storm go away. Let God help you, try and ask Him for help.

Comment down below if you will join me in these next few days to pray BIG BOLD prayers for the storms in our lives to go away. It’s time to let God take over and help Him fight the battles with you!